Anybody want a back rub?

I was sitting here just wishing that I could have someone come up behind me and start to rub my poor aching shoulders. It made me think of a time when I hardly had to think about it and it would be happening. I miss that so terribly. Not the rub but the idea that there was someone who was willing to do that for me. I get very tired by the end of the day because I am not just doing for me. In fact I don’t really need that much so what I do mostly is for someone else. The thought of just going for a quiet walk together, watching the stars, having a picnic. Now our lives seem so full of pandemonium all the time, we have to find ways to escape each other as well in order to get some peaceful time to ourselves. This is no ordinary life by any description. I don’t love it at all. I used to feel guilty about getting a few minutes to myself or craving a hot meal or even just having a bath with no interruptions. All things of the past. It’s so bad, my husband doesn’t call me as much but his workers do. I would like to come up with some solutions that are win win instead of how they are. A friend of mine was with me recently when I was waiting to pick up some prescriptions and he was quite incensed at how long it took and especially the fact that it was not for me. I guess the bottom line is that I’m feeling a little down about it all. I know eventually things will change hopefully for the better so I will keep a stiff upper lip. Here’s to being strong and yet empathic as well. Here’s to a bright outlook and knowing that this is not permanent.  I hope for the best for all of us in this soup. If I could love all the hurt away, I would in a heartbeat. Keep smiling.

Namaste!