Love plus

In our family it has been a long standing tradition to start out the season of Fall with a great dinner consisting of pork chops in gravy, cooked until it falls apart, mashed potatoes, and carrots. Followed closely with yummy pumpkin pie. Well, I wanted to make this dinner but now that I am on my own, the prospect of cooking that amount of food (you can't cook small) was putting me off. It was making me sad both in the respect that my sweetie is not here and that I wouldn't be able to start off the season right. Funny how you just get so used to doing things a certain way and even if you are flexible, it can leave a hole in your emotional heart.

I was mulling over the problem when I had a brainstorm. Why not invite my favourite family over to have dinner with me and therefore have  a real reason to celebrate? I called my friend and asked if she and her husband and granddaughter could join me? She said they would be happy to come over and thanked me for the invite.

I spent the afternoon, cooking away and thoroughly enjoying the idea of cooking for a bunch again. I miss Wayne so very much but I felt great doing that today. The time came for dinner, the granddaughter said a beautiful grace for the meal and we dug in. Everything turned out delicious and we all had seconds. Then came the pie. MMMMMMMMM!!!! What can I say? The only way the pie could have been better is if it had been home made but rotary is alright when you have everything else to do.

The bottom line is that although I am missing my husband very much, I am also reminded at times like this that there is precious love all around us. It's easy to miss it or forget it when you are enmired in misery but I'm coming up for air and every lovely gasp tells me that there is sunshine on the horizon and a bright future just around the corner. I celebrate that I am okay and getting better all the time. My health is returning slowly but steadily and I am feeling stronger. Halelujah! Praise the Lord!! Thank you Father for standing by me.

When you feel the most lost and unsettled is when you need to be thinking about the positive things in your life. Don't ignore them, they will see you through. Even the smallest of things like a dragonfly on a basket can be rewarding and enlightening. Love can be seen in so many forms and it is truly all around us. I'm okay, you're okay and together we are brilliant!!

Namaste